Lashing Out
"I’m angry right now. I want to lash out at people."
"I’m hurting right now. I want to let others know my sufferings, what I’m going through."
Whenever I feel about something strongly, I immediately express it. Lonely, happy, in love, angry, devastated, frustrated, inspired… these are just one of the too many emotions that I go through. I share these feelings by telling it to anyone who is willing to listen or sometimes I email it to my groups (especially if the directed person is on that list) or I blog.
This is the problem of being too emotional. It’s hard to bottle up these emotions. It’s so hard to keep all those pent-up emotions. I just need to release it or else… or else I’ll just go mad thinking about it on my own. And I bet this is how other people treat their emotions, as well.
And now as I am experiencing how it is being directed at, I’ve come to realize that in the midst of such strong emotions and lashing out at people, we don’t really think how we affect other people. That there might be someone who’ll end up more hurt than what we are experiencing.
I have come to realize that we should be careful of whom we should lash out. And the best person/s to do this with is those that are closest to us. Those that understood us. Those, that despite who we are and what we’re going through, love us.
And for those that I have hurt through my careless words, I AM SORRY. It may be too late to say this but I hope it is not too late to accept my apology.
